So Im a 34 year old single mother of 2. A 9 year old with autism and 2 years old. Im what you would call an unskilled worker and when covid-19 pandemic hit back in March I lost my job
I stumble upon programming and figured I can do this. 5 months down the line Im finding the concept extremely hard. Like I now understand fully html and css syntax but when it come’s to actually use it in an actual project, on my own without watching any youtube tutorial, I have no clue! It is extremely frustrating that now Im starting to doubt myself maybe this isn’t for me? But with everything that’s going on with the economy. I need this for my future self and my kids.
Plus with a special need child I literally only have about 1 hour a day to do any learning as it take’s hours on most nights to put my son to bed so I usually see myself starting studying at around 11 pm. By the time it’s 12 midnight Im so tired I can’t go on or understand anything anymore.
Am I putting myself upfor a failure? Can I really do this or is it just a distance dream? I feel so sad and defeated!