I have so many problems, i dont know where I should start!
Ive been always struggling with motivation. I lose motivation very quickly. I start with something without finishing it. I should be studying/ programming right now, but here I am! I am looking for distractions on youtube, Google and yeah!
I have a very hard time focussing on one task and finishing it. I don’t know why. It feels like my body doesn’t want me to study.
I have all these dreams, but the gap of where I am right now vs where I want to be at, is waaaay too big!
This fact makes me sooooo depressing. It eats me like a cancer from the inside. And I also hold grudges to certain people. These emotions hold me back from my succes and makes me unable to function properly.
Please people, help me! I want to pursure a career as a web developer, but my mind/ body doesn’t let me! I am sabotaging myself by looking for distractions etc.
Also sleep is a big problem. I sleep too little even though I go to bed at 10pm. It doesnt matter how early or late i go I cant fall asleep! FucK!
I am soooo done with this!
I need help from the outside, my inner motivation has gone empty. Ive put soooo much effort working on myself but with no desired result!
Ive been living under a lot of stress continuously the last YEARS, and i quit jobs many times because the stress was TOO Much for me. I couldn’t think, talk or function normally anymore.
I hope my brain is not damaged?? It REALLY feels like this. I feel like a downie. An idiot! Help me, someone out there!