Who said coding was easy?.. no one… I admit live got in the way and I took a big leave of absense, but something wasn’t feeling right. I started back on this journey and regret I ever stopped. This can’t be your only source for coding. Like they suggest, open up google. Do some research and learning on other sites. www.w3schools.com, www.udemy.com are just a few.
The only person holding us back from our successes are ourselves. I would take a breath and start again! it takes time, so lets get it!