As the title says, last year I was very motivated and I was looking to change my career become a good web developer, it was my new year resolution as well. Everything was going fine I was doing alright finishing up the task and challenges on FCC. I bought the Colt Steele’s course and completed the initial task. Some coding on codeacademy and Odin Project (just signed up) but now I just don’t feel like doing anything. I cant remember the code I just forgot the syntax or stuff like that. I lost all my interest when I reached the first stage of making tribute pages I just can’t code without instructions and I felt like a dumbass.
I just quit coding no progress in 3-4 months, I thought about deciding to join a local short course so place in my town where I can learn coding because everytime I open my laptop after work I feel so tired and sleepy. I eventually found one small software house (7 developers) working on unity projects and web-based (php backend projects). They offered me an internship (long story) I went there 2-3 days but I was not learning anything I did something but it was not a proper roadmap. One day I was looking at the front end the other day I was doing some PHP it made no sense.
Right now I work as a Customer Service rep and I work 9 hrs a day. After I finish my work I don’t have any energy I just tried and I cant concentrate on the side projects or learning some code. I talk on the phones all day long and I can’t quit my job because it pays my bills. I wake up at 5 am as I need to reach my office sharp 6 am and I get off at 3 pm. After that, when I visit the software house, I spend 3 hrs there but those guys know their stuff I’m just stuck looking at my screen or doing something else it been two days I had some family commitments I took off from that internship since they are not paying anything I can make excuse and leave they won’t even bother stopping me.
So I think I cant become a good developer it’s not my thing anymore I’m stuck with these odd jobs. I can’t quit because I will go broke in no time. So any advise what should I do? or is it normal? how can I manage this situation?
ignore my english its not too good.