I started watercoloring during the pandemic and I quickly fell in love with this media. I learned a lot and would often spend hours painting every day.
After some time I decided to start sharing my learnings on social media and eventually some friends started asking if they could commission artwork from me.
I’d say I was not working with that. But eventually I ended up accepting two commissions.
For the first request I spent one month studying to create something, it was really challenging, but also a nice and enriching experience. After that I was really tired and spent for the first time a long while without painting.
A few months later a friend asked me to create a watercolor from her home. I also spent a month studying and she loved the result.
I think that was my last watercolor. I can’t say I’m 100% sure. But I know that after that I stopped painting.
I am not completely sure why. Maybe I simply got tired or became interested in other hobbies. But I also ask myself if I was feeling pressured to make my hobby profitable.
Painting was something I did outside my main job. It was supposed to be a way to relax, experiment, and enjoy being a beginner.
In the culture I live in (I’m Brazilian) there is often this pressure to turn every skill or hobby into a side business. So, maybe it stopped feeling like free time? I don’t know.
Also, I tend to move between hobbies. I enjoy learning something new, even when I am not particularly good at it, I think it’s humbling. And, since I’m a teacher, I think this makes me understand better how the people I teach feel. Don’t take me wrong, I love being an expert in many things I do and I’m proud of them, I just always leave the door opened to experience things which I know I won’t be the best.
After watercolor painting, I explored other interests and left my brushes untouched for quite a while.
Recently, I’ve been feeling the need to paint again. I spend a lot of my day in front of screens, so having a quiet, screen-free activity sounds especially appealing. But I am still trying to figure out how to fit it into my current routine.
The painting below is one of the pieces I made before I stopped. I am hoping that sharing it might give me a little push to start again.
And since we are sharing. Have you ever felt this kind of feeling? Of not wanting your hobbies to be monetized? Or, have you ever thought about that?
Also, do you have any hobbies that you stopped and later returned to? How was it?
So many questions! Feel free to pick one you resonates or answer them all. =)
Thanks for the space to share!






